Wednesday, July 20, 2016

55 Fiction - Onslaught

She feared as her clothes were tugged and hairs disheveled.
 Everyone on road watched without intervening, even as she struggled to save herself from the attack which continued mercilessly.
Dripping wet, she took a deep breath, built enough courage to face her enemy, and threw the umbrella into air to enjoy the lashing rain.

Monday, July 4, 2016

Early Detection Can Save A Life – Ovarian Cancer

The word cancer itself can send shivers down the spine, because it has turned out to be fatal in many cases. The biggest challenge for cancer specialist treating cancer is that, it shows no symptoms until too late.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Surviving Cancer For More Than 20 Years... Touch Wood.

It has been more than 20  years since I underwent mastectomy to fight cancer. I still feel the chills in my bone when I think back on those terrible times. As I realized that I have III stage cancer, which meant I could die leaving behind my two kids, my daughter who was just 11 months and son who was just 4 years, I felt the ground slipping away from beneath my feet. 

This was one of those times when  life brings you problems big enough that you may find yourself in a canyon deeper than Grand Canyon with steep walls.You may feel like losing all control and tumbling down the stairs. It may be enough to make one lose hope of ever getting out of this messy situation. But then, life itself teaches you to be strong and persist in efforts, until you claw yourself out of the deeps; and then it gives you confidence that ‘nothing is impossible’. 

All through my life I consider the year 1996 to be the worst I have faced ever in my life. Ahh! There are situations and times, that for a moment make me feel, there are far more worse moments in my life; but when I sit down and serenely think upon the events, I am sure that this is the worst and toughest part of life. 

I had to deal with my daughter’s special needs condition, in addition doctors came up with all kinds of diagnosis making me more nervous and unsure what future had in store for us. Then I had to deal with my diagnosis of breast cancer, III stage while my daughter was just 11 months old. The worst thing that ever happened to me was to follow soon.  I lost my loving (not only by me but by everyone who knew her) sister to cancer. My son was a nervous wreck after losing his loving aunt, and watching his Mom suffer side effects of chemotherapy. He must have felt the fear of losing his mom too. My family was torn to shreds and I don’t know whether it has ever been repaired again.. SIGH!

 I wished to give up EVERYTHING, the struggle, the fight and the will to survive. All I wanted to do was rest and allow the tide of life to carry me wherever it intended to. May be it would have happened if not for my kids. Kids are great motivators, or at least I feel mine have been to me. My sole purpose to live and struggle was the thought of two orphaned kids with no Mommy to love and care for them. This was a strong booster.. it picked up my drooping spirit with a gusto that a so and so called drug has claimed to do for a so and so droopy thing. Another motivation came from my aged parents who had just lost their loving daughter to cancer. I could not put them through the trauma of losing another daughter to the beast. Anyway I started clawing the walls of the canyon, came out of the deeps and climbed few hills with the momentum I had. Somehow I feel I have kind of turned into kind of unstoppable person now. I am not satisfied with just being where I am… I want to fly high and touch the skies.

When I think back on the days of being diagnosed with cancer, the day I went for my surgery and looked at my breast in the bathroom mirror of the hospital for the last time, the day I lost my original form never to be the same again, the drama plays in front of my eyes quite vividly. God had made some mistakes earlier too, giving me a club foot but this was another kind of deformity of my torso I had to live with now. 

I felt bitter back then and the bitterness grew when I brushed my hair and they came out in bunches and filled my lap. I went totally bald with the chemotherapy. It was tough to go through cancer and tougher to go through chemotherapy but then it must have been easier than to be orphaned at the age of 11 months or 4 years and grow up knowing you lost your Mom to cancer. I came out of self pity. The concerned look on the face of my son is what woke me and told me to pick up the bits and make a good looking collage out of it. I went ahead and did it… and now I have a beautiful collage of life to live ;).


One thing problems could never take away from me was my sense of humor. It has lasted the tough ride along with me. It has gone through quite the drub but always comes out in triumph to put smiles on lips. Once I was out of blues, I started to feel that I should have taken a picture of myself before going for the surgery; I should have preserved the memories of my bald head through photos or done something crazy just to lift off the pressure. Back then the concern for my children and the fear of not being there for them had pushed my sense of humour into background … but then it made it come back one fine day and I felt cancer has not changed me much. It had not made me bitter for long… I was feeling better than before.
I have learned my lessons of life… and the lessons help me live life with lots and lots of hope. The hope to live, laugh, and let others live happily around me. 
Today I stand here 20 years later watching my children become adults, realize my dream of being counselor and psychologist, training people to lead better life and living life to the fullest with gusto. 

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Rashmi Wins Future Of India Award



It was a proud moment for me to watch my M.D., Mrs Rashmi Praveen walk up to receive the Future of India Award for “Woman Entreprenuer of the year” for the year 2016.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

A Doctor Who Knows Children

People often say I am a very over confident person who moves ahead to do things about which I am barely familiar or have little knowledge of. I may have done things to prove them right. The only time I felt nervous and not so confident was when I was going to be a mother. I was not sure whether I would be able to do justice to the responsibility of bringing up a child the right way.

While surfing through the books at a renowned bookstall, I came across the book “Bringing up Baby”. This was something I was looking for guidance. The person who had written that book had real passion for children and their well-being. I decided to find the author of the book and look up to her as my guide. Fortunately, Dr. Nandini Mundkur, developmental pediatrician was just 30 km away from where I lived. When Rayyan, my son was born, I went to her for consultation.  On my first visit, I knew she is going to be better than what I expected her to be. He did not even cry when she gave him the immunization shot. She had passion and love for her work and aimed at making hospitals better for children. She had a dream project in her mind and was working on it at that time.

My second child was with special needs. It was during that period that knowing her came to me as a blessing. Without her it would have been very tough for me deal  with the emotions of two children, my daughter special requirements and also my own problems like going through breast cancer when still recovering from the discovery that my daughter had special needs and would need support throughout her life. She helped me monitor my daughter's development to help her improve her life-skills.

Dr. Nandini Mundkur had set up the Bangalore Children’s Hospital and Research Center where I was taking my daughter for physiotherapy. It was during this period, when my daughter was 11 months old that I was diagnosed with cancer.  Dr. Nandini was my pillar of support during this period and saw to it that I was treated in her dream hospital, which was meant for the children, so that I could be near my children when going through the treatment. She had a heart, which was as beautiful as her work, and she expressed it well through her achievements. With her guidance, I have been a very happy and loving parent to my children.

Today, with her vast experience, she has set up a tool for parents and doctors to monitor the development of children.
Track and ACT will help in monitoring child's development from the age of 4 months to 5 years. With this tool in their hands, parents will have easy time monitoring their child and developmental milestones they reach during their early growth period. You can visit TotsGuide to know more about the project. 




Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Wish You Happy Birthday My Inspirational Daughter


When Farheena entered my life on 11th May 1995, my joy knew no bounds. Farheena has ensured that I continue to enjoy her company even to this day. She inspires with her uncomplicated thinking and way of looking at things without being prejudiced or judgmental. Having a daughter born after a son completed me as a mother.

I love the way Farheena greets the day with her unique sentence, "Tomorrow has happened!" There are many things that only Farheena can say or do, especially the unconditional and limitless love she shares with people around her. 
With her medals and certificate
Though life began with loads of challenges for Farheena, there is nothing that can stop her from being happy. Today, Farheena does not talk fluently, but she does communicate in her own way and style. She can see clearly. She walks with little help. Farheena manages her own life and keeps in touch with friends of her choice through internet. Facebook and recently WhatsApp are her favorites. 

With one of her favorite blogger friend Janaki 
With limited words she can pronounce or spell, she uses her creativity to convey messages to us. Her lack of complete vocabulary has not stopped her from communicating with people. She keeps trying until she is understood.

Sharing her friend's secret with her baby doll Annie

2015 marked a new Era of my life because this was the year when Farheena walked in with her first Salary she received for making paper bags in YST. She is involved in lot more activities now.


That was the biggest goal of my life achieved. People who do not understand the whole concept often ask me, “How much does she earn?” That is not important. What makes it important for me as a mother is to know that she is now capable of being engaged in fruitful and purposeful work throughout the day. Apart from her job at YST, Farheena is busy on limeroad creating her scrapbook with styles of her choice. She has given me a few fashion tips and tries to correct me when she feels I am wearing inappropriate clothes for an occasion.


My inspiration in 2015 is my special needs daughter Farheena who has not allowed anyone to take her for granted. She knows how to protect herself and when to ask for help if someone is bothering her. She carries herself with dignity of a queen and is proud of her achievements. She has the ability to make people feel like somebody special. Moreover, unlike many people I know, she loves and respects herself.
15 years ago, I was consulting a lawyer regarding my legal rights. During the course of discussion, I mentioned that I am proud of my daughter. The lawyer then retorted saying, “Stop lying to yourself Farida. Come out of the delusion you are living in. No one can be proud of a special needs child. You can accept and love her but cannot be proud of her”. I was confused back then and walked away without answering her. I knew I felt pride in my heart when I think of my daughter but I was not sure. 
Today, I can very confidently say that I am very proud of my daughter. She has taught me a very important lesson in my life that – it is not what you get in your life that matters, but what you do with what you have which makes the difference. I know she will continue to inspire me in the coming years as well.
I am very happy to share the story of my hope and happiness to people who may feel overwhelmed by the challenges in their lives. Hang-on and fight with all your might! You will succeed.

The pretty Baby

Loves to dress up

Determined to get on her feet after triple
fusion surgery on ankles

Making her style statement

One of those rare days when she cleans
our home




Saturday, April 23, 2016

ROG - One Nation, One Passion, One Flag (ship)

Republic Of Gamers

One Nation, One Passion, One Flag (ship)



In today’s world, when the words like republic and democracy have lost their meaning, there is land where rests the hope of Republic – where there is no politics, bribes or killings. This is our land of one language, one citizenship, one flag and one passion – GAMING!
Welcome to ROG – Republic Of Gamers, were you need neither passports nor visa for entry, but just that exact amount of burning passion for games. Enter the land of wars without bloodshed, races without pollution or waste of fuel and complete entertainment.
When Bangalore is reeling under some unusual summer heat, there was some cool news for ROG citizens by ASUS on April 21, 2016. Long, before laptops and desktops made way in my life, I have been passionate about gaming. Slowly with handheld games in the beginning to TV games like Othello, Mario and later Test Drive, NFS Most Wanted, games have been an integral part of my life for more than 35 years now. The only thing that holds me back from buying every mean machine launched in the market is my bank balance. Only those who love gaming will know what it means to be a gamer……………………sigh! So, I rushed to have a look at the new devices being launched by ASUS.

It is amazing event where ASUS announced the launch of a new line-up for its flagship Republic of Gamers (ROG) series, taking gaming up to the next level in India. The breath-taking range of devices, where not just beauties to show but came with Quad core 6th Gen Intel core i7 (Skylake) and NVIDIA GeForce GTX™ 900 series graphics which made them mean machines To Up Our Game.
The outstanding champion in the event was one of two gaming grade desktops with refined aesthetics which made you feel as though you are handling an Alien Space Machine with an ET watching over your shoulder. Yeah, off course I am talking about the aggressively designed Titan of the gaming world walking in grey-and-copper armour to conquer our hearts - The Asus ROG GT51. No wonder this amazing device is the winner of a 2016 CES Innovation Award in the Gaming and Virtual Reality category.

What gives this machine an out of world look is the circular vent which appears like an Alien
Eye. This attractive feature is part of the cooling system, bringing air in through the front panel, and expelling it through vents on the top and rear
. GT51 has an internal cooling system with a dedicated air tunnel that takes advantage of natural convection to ensure efficient heat management during marathon gaming sessions. On the way out it combines with liquid cooling to keep the GT51 from overheating, when games gets heavier and lasts longer.

What makes desktops more interesting than the laptops is the option of customizable configurations to meet our needs. Inside this giant, I am sure there is enough room for more graphics cards to enhance the gaming experience, if it can get any better. ROG Turbo Gear lets users maximize GT51’s full overclocking potential with just one click, while the ASUS-exclusive Aegis II application helps monitor system parameters. In addition, a USB 3.1 Type-C port on its front panel provides data transmission speeds of up to 10Gbps and is able to quick-charge mobile devices. GT51 features the exclusive ROG Band to let users activate Shadow Drive — a hidden hard drive space — or overclock GT51 as well.

Add to this ROG Swift PG348Q Gaming Display – 34 inch gaming monitor with an Ultra-Wide Quad HD (UWQHD) (3440 x 1440) panel, 100Hz refresh rate and Nvidia G-SYNC technology, and there is nothing in the world that can pull you away from your games.
Leave alone gaming, life is never going to be same again if I own this mean beast, who I have fallen in love with.
But that was not all ASUS had to brag about, though I was hooked on to it.
The latest additions also included:
·         High-performance gaming laptop ROG G752VY
·         High-end gaming desktops G20
·         Unveils GL552VW and G551VW mainstream laptops
·         The ultraportable and slim ROG G501VW
Good enough to entice the gamers to give up everything in their lives to get hooked on to their passions.
The G752VY is loaded with Windows 10, a 6th-generation Intel® Skylake Core™ i7 processor, up to 64GB DDR4 RAM, and the latest NVIDIA® GeForce® GTX™ 980m graphics, ROG G752 for the out of world gaming performance. It even features the ROG-exclusive mobile 3D Vapor Chamber for increased cooling performance, and a backlit anti-ghosting gaming keyboard with 30-key rollover for precise command and control in battle. Who is waiting for the war cry????


Among the towering giants, there stood a ROG G20CB device, making its presence felt with a powerful, compact features with refined aesthetics. Adding to the joy of gamers, this device comes with 2.5” and 3.5” slots for SSDs and HDDs, the G20 supports the latest M.2 PCIe Gen 3x4 SSD which gives you data access speed of up to 2Gbits/s, -- four times faster than SATA SSDs. With up to an NVidia GTX 980, the G20 is suited for surround displays or for 2K or 4K monitors. It also includes exclusive ASUS ROG Aegis II software with GameAlive for instant gameplay recording, editing, and streaming, and GameFirst III for network traffic management. WOW! That is all I can say.

We were also introduced to Asus ROG G501VW which had NVidia GTX960M Graphics in a Slim (20.6mm) and lightweight (2.06kg) metallic design. What makes this machine special is its 4K IPS panel with 178-degree viewing angles, ASUS SonicMaster and ROG AudioWizard enhanced audio complements the experience. For those who seek jigh-performance gaming laptop with enthusiast grade graphics and silent cooling system, their search ends here.
Finally I have to mention the GL552VW which is targeted for the users who desire powerful notebooks with high performance gaming grade hardware in a stylish and compact package. Not everyone is a fan of towering all powerful hulk. For trivia lovers here is a fact - the design of ROG GL552VW is inspired by the F22 Stealth fighter aircraft. Apart from all new metallic design with a backlit ROG logo that goes in line with the Republic of Gamers theme, the interior has also been upgraded to a new level. The device is power packed with Quad core 6th Gen intel core i7(Skylake), NVidia GTX 960M graphics with blazing fast 4GB GDDR5 graphics memory, 16GB ultrafast system memory, a TB of storage along with 128 GB SSD.
That should cater to the needs of all different gamers of our world for now! Off course, new demands will come up in days to come and I feel ASUS will be ready for us. At present they have innovated beyond my imagination and expectation.
One of the worst things that can happen to gamers when everything is moving according to the plan is the heating up of machines. Tackling this problem head-on, ASUS has made certain of a lasting and uninterrupted gaming experience with their latest models which counters the issue of quick heating with commendable variants of cooling technology.

Elaborating further on the launch and the gaming industry, Peter Chang, Regional Head - South Asia & Country Manager – System Business Group - ASUS India, said, “Gaming technology is always evolving as a gaming enthusiast is always looking for upgrading or enhancing their systems. Today, along with high performance and graphics, gamers also want their machines to be portable and light-weight. With our new ROG series launch, we have tried our best to cater to the demands of all the gaming segments i.e. from entry and mainstream levels to professional gaming. It has always been our endeavour to provide the best gaming experience to the users and ultimately help the gaming industry in India to thrive”.

Good news for us gamers.
The most powerful gaming laptops will are killers priced at // ROG GT51 – starts at INR 3,25,900// ROG G20CB –INR 1,22,990 // ROG G501VW - INR 95,490 // G551VW - INR 1,00,490 // G752VY - INR 179,990 and GL552VW - INR 82,490. Not affordable by many middle class Indians, but then gamers have that exclusive stack of INRs stacked in a secret corner for their gaming needs.
Looking forward to owning one of those mean machines to beat my son, who is a great gamer and competitor for me. One of these devices should clearly give me an advantage on him.

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