Friday, October 15, 2010

I wish my phone had the feature – to utter the magic words “ They have found a cure”.

Doctors had told me that my daughter was born with multiple disabilities. It is not easy for a mom to accept the fact that her child is exceptional and will have challenges doing simple activities. It was very tough on me to accept the fact that my 2 month old daughter was suffering from some kind of atrophy to her brain which had taking away her ability to see. The effect the brain atrophy would have on her life was not known then but it was clear that she had no vision. My cute little baby who looked so healthy with beautiful eyes had no vision and suffered from some unknown terrible malady which could take away more of her much needed abilities was unacceptable to me. The VEP proved she had no vision.
I was feeding my daughter and the phone started to ring. The landline went on tring tring for some time and then paused. I wanted to finish with the task on hand first and then attend to the phone. It started to ring again. I put up daughter down and attended to the call.
Caller : Is this Farida Rizwan?
Me : yeah
Caller : Ma’am, I am receptionist from the hospital calling. You had been here last week and doctor said your child was not normal. She says there has been mistake in the diagnosis and they regret it. Your daughter is absolutely fine and there is no need to worry.
Me: OH MY GOD! I knew it. I knew there had been a mistake. Thank you so much …
I left the phone hanging and ran to my daughter but slipped and woke up to the dark night engulfing me. It was still night and I was dreaming. My two kids were sleeping as though there was nothing wrong with the world around them.
Life moved on with harsh reality of life and another reality of life was breast cancer. Did not even give me chance to recover from the shock of my daughters diagnosis. Surgery, chemotherapy along with support from my kids and family pushed me on. Yet there was no way to be sure that the demon would not come back.
I was in my native place and having my lunch when my Nokia 1100 started ringing the tune of Dhoom.. I picked it up and had my brother on the line. He was calling from Bangalore.
Brother : Hi Fari. I have a good news for you!
Me : what?
Brother : I need you to sit down before I tell this to you.
Me : OK OK !!! I am sitting down. Please tell me soon. Did you get some good job?
Brother : Doctor told me today that they have finally found a cure for Farheena. All she needs is a medicine to be administered to her for 3 months and then she is going to be able to walk, talk, read and write like any one of us.
Me : It is like dream come true.. Oh God! I am leaving for Bangalore today.
I put the phone down and tried to finish the last two morsels of food lying on my place but then choked on it. I closed my eyes and then opened them into utter darkness of night. So the dream had remained to be just the dream. It had not come true. My kids like usual were sleeping as though nothing was amiss in their lives.
The dream went on and as my phones kept changing the only aspect was the tone the look of the phone that changed. How much we steel ourselves to the reality, love of kid never lets you stop wishing and those wishes manifest as a dream for me. Always!
I was looking at the new touch screen phone which I had won online. I felt so proud announcing to my facebook friends that I was writing my status through the one touch phone I had won online. As I was looking at the key pad to find the right words I saw the screen lighting up and announcing an incoming call. It was a call from USA. My friend Paula was calling from her cell phone. As she was having tough time I got worried.

Me : Hi, how are you Pee?
Paula : I am fine. Actually you need to come back to USA as soon as possible. There has been a breakthrough in the medicine and they have found a way to treat Farheena. She is going to gain her full mobility, speaking skills etc. What do you think?
Me: OH God!! I knew they could do it…
And then all of the sudden everything goes blank and it is totally dark. I wonder what happened during midday to create such darkness and then I realize I was still dreaming.
Phone change but the wish remains the same…. Life goes on!


  1. life and each of the moment that makes every bit of it so colorful and eventful. Certainly the phones have changed the way we live, wish all your dreams and the wishes you have expressed here come true!

  2. There's an app for every kind of possibility these days virtual mostly, if only there was an app for all else.
    Praying for your wishes and dreams and well-being of you and yours.

  3. Dreams may come true but then, we learn to accept that they already have but we just haven't looked close enough.

  4. As long as there are dreams, and the ability to hope, there are cures waiting to be found. Some day that app will be discovered.

  5. Farida Apa,
    Your's is not just story but fact of life......An inspiring fact.
    I would like to suggest you that,if you send a complete article from your life to 'Reader's Digest".....As many inspring articles they publish in Indian edition but it's rare from Indian people.World ought to know about your struggle and many thousand of female readers may get encouragemant..If possible the Hindi and Gujarati translation I wish...somebody do for vast publication......


  6. That was one poignant dream of a mother, wishing the best for her child. They moved me to tears, but there is something called a miracle and it will happen if you have enough faith it the power of the Almighty. Sometime He makes us wait for a while before granting our wishes. Pray on, and all the best.

  7. I really glad to here at your blog....i like ur blog ur family specially a sweet little girls !!

    nice post ..... keep it up !! m hamesh kahta hun talabo m tairne se sahas ki pariksha nhi hoti asli pariksha ho salabo k aane k baad hoti hai !!

    aaj aapse mila to yakeen ho ghya!!

    Jai HO Mangalmay Ho

  8. I hope and wish your dream come true because as Dr. Abdul Kalam says, you have to dream BIG.

  9. I've got tears in my eyes just reading this. Every dream seemed so real, and my heart skipped with joy and excitement. But you are definitely a brave mother, an inspiration to all of us. Keep your faith going. Someday, I'm sure, there will be a cure.

  10. Life changed by technology so much if we compare with those times when people were waiting for letters.Now communication with even distant relatives and friends have become so easy with facebook ,orkut and if you have mobile with all the features then I think you have a dream in pocket.I loved the way you expressed everything and every single word seems to be straight from heart.


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